one week and plus plus left to the holidays. but before that, there is the PRELIMS to kill all our mood to have fun. lols

its less than a week to the ss paper and i havent start revising. there are two books to study and im feeling sick just at the thought of it. luckily, its only one subject than need so much studying, since there is nothing for me to read for eng. but just one subject can kill me. homework have been rushing in and i cant finish them on time. i want to study, but my brain cant stay still and focus. the sleeping bug tends to come and i will fall asleep in front of the book. i cant help it and i feel guilty. i want to do well too, but how can i do it if i dun study well? if i am a genius, i wont have to worry. bt im not. even studying well may not give me good grades bt at least i tried. i tried to study. i need motivation and a goal in life. but my goal in life now doesnt tell me to study hard. the future career that i want does not need me to study all my sciences and humanities, maybe only my maths. but maths has been a disaster ever since this year. i didnt realise maths could kill me until recently. i duno wads wrong with me and i cant seem to put those maths thing in my brain. things no longer work out as perfectly as before.

im jealous of my sister. she finished her mid years and is slacking now. but i cant.