okay. fine. today is a disaster. i cant move to livejournal and i am stuck using this. gosh.
the prelim results were back and thankgod i passed. im not sure about physics since it is not returned yet. bt i lost hope on dat. so it was still fine for every other thing. except for english. cant believe i failed compre. maths and amaths was okay i think. at least an A1 although the paper was not really easy. chem was as usual a B. humanities same, but lil improvement. bio was the best. never thought i could get an A1, if i didnt count wrong. haha. it made me happy for at least an hour or so although it was a 75, just on the dot.
bt i really couldnt understand what was wrong. if u studied, then u take the exam and do your best. u dont care what the results are since you know u have done your best. why fret over a tiny exam just because you did badly? and i know i studied. i read all that i should. except that i forgot all about coniferous forests and it came out, wasting my 7 marks. but i was at least pleased with my results until expectations came. it wasnt that i didnt want all A1. but it was that whether i could. doesnt a small step count? yes. i know i could have done better, but they are always limitations. you dont do too much, because it isnt worth it.

i have no idea how i would have managed to post this successfully. blogger is irritating. everything is in a mess and im typing in some kind of outer space. yupps. it says at the bottom of the page that they cant contact blogger. DUHH. and so im considering moving to livejournal. =D

oh no. i cant post. blogger has gone mad.

save me from distractions...

please tell me that the prelims is going to be easy and that i wont have a mind block those few days. im just on the verge of falling. the sight of prelim papers are giving me headaches. trying to study and remember all the formulaes and stuffs seem just impossible. i have been trying hard, i think but it is not working. everything just disappears from my mind an hour after. maths is getting more tougher and my only hope of A is gone. please... any angels or stars or anyone, save me. i need to get more than two As. i need to go in a JC at least. i hope things could go back to the primary school days when things were like as easy as 1 plus 1.

omg. this week has been such a waste and i have achieved nothing in my to do list. all i did was to do my hbl homework. but sad to say, i didnt finish it all. school is opening tomorrow but i have more than half of the holiday assignments not done. this blogger is so irritating. i spent more than a day trying to fix the stupid template and it turns out so shitty. my internet has gone bonkers too. it hangs everytime i close the webpage. oohhmmyyggoosshh. my world has gone off track.

i realised i should be glad about many things and stop complaining. and i need to tidy up with my life and set goals.

im glad that
i have lovely family and friends
im a singaporean
i was in a great pri sch and scored 245 for PSLE
i had a boyfriend once in pri 1
we got golds for SYF 07 and 09
i have kissed someone on the lips
i have been around each corner of singapore xcept the flyer

im not glad that
i do not own more than ten dresses
i do not own a pair of heel
i only own two colours of nail polish
i never did well before in my studies during my secondary life
i have never been to anywhere else in the world other than singapore and msia
i do not know how to do makeup other than foundation and lip gloss
i had not learn ballet when young

i should aim to
stop complaining about doing homework
score well for o levels and get into a JC
continue dancing until i get old
be able to afford a porsche one day
buy a white horse/pony some day

crazy thing that i consider doing
fly to antartica and kiss the penguins
shout out to the world and ask them to stop all war and stop contributing to global warming

for now, i have to
finish up the whole stack of hol homework and HBL homework and study prelims which may take me a year.
but i will still do it...