celebrate life seminar.

day1----painted kites... had no paint brushes for us so had to use sticks which were actually quite useful. drew a orange girl jumping up and splasehed different colours around. and i didnt know i had such artistic talents that the tcher said my art piece was nice. she took my name and bahiemah's name. bt when they called our name and asked us to go on stage to read our reflections, we ran into the toilet and hide. haha. stupid thing. made me so nervous and i thot i was playin truant. bt it was only for 10 mins. and poor bahiemah, the stupid tcher called her name like shit. den we had two totally boring talks. -.- which were really boring but i still had the mood to take notes. haha. i was so hardworking. dining etiquette... we rushed to do everthing cos we had spend most of the time eating burger and making ourself fat. we had to book the 'wheelchair' toilet in case there is no space for us. bt then, we realised its too small for four people to change at the same time. and it was so wet. so we shift house and squeezed with other people in the otehr toilet which was dry. we changed, combed hair and make up and blah blah blah. did everything in such a mess. bt on time. haha. den we walked to the grassroots which was a stupid idea. it was so hot and the shoe was so uncomfortable and i was wearing two clothes and so it was damn hot. dat was not the end of bad things. during the program, there were talks and talks and talks which were so boring. and the food was not nice. it was cold and the chicken chop was ewww, only the soup and ice cream was nice. even the tea taste bad coz bahiemah took so much sugar and i had none.

day2----suuper duuper boring. it was more talks at nyp and tours round and round. bt i learnt something which is to never ever give birth. we had tour at the health science and we went to the 'pregnancy room'. there was this plastic model GUY which was pregnant and it was to teach students how to deliver babies, etc. den there was a video showing us a lady giving birth LIVE. omg. it was so disgusting and it nearly make me vomit. the baby was so bloody and the stupid doctor stuffed part of his fingers in the lady's ass to PULL the baby. he was so rough and i thot he killed the baby cos it was not moving when it came out. luckily, it was not. bt i could feel the pain and ewwwww. im never goin to do that. there was then the operating theatre which the guy verbally told us how they open patients stomach to take babies out. and it was equally gross. luckily, i didnt faint. im never goin to become a nurse or a doctor. never.

MARCH HOLIDAYS OFFICIALLY STARTED.

bt not for me. i have loads of homework to do and i have to go back school nearly every single day.

and IT'S CRYSTAL ONG SI QI'S BIRTHDAY!!!

JOGATHON yesterday!!!

i ran, seriously ran for the first time in my four years. and i got 19. haha. yupps. dat is an achievement for me finally, in my last year in PHS and im so yippee happy. haha. although it was just a beginner thing, bt it is still good to at least have a ranking. haha. and because i ran, i finally sweat. it was also because of the weather which was so hot. as we were walking back to the school, i was still felling so hot and wet. but luckily, there was strawberry and choc ice cream which saved my life. =D so yummy. haha.

netball after that. it was so stupid, idiotic and shitty. dun wan to talk bout it.

lastly, our class won some mcdonalds coupon which i tink is a lil too cheapskate. bt better than nothing.

im feeling extra happy these few days because i passed all my subjects, lyk finally... after years. thanks for all my effort which i put in and the plenty of time i spent sleeping which allowed me to be able to pass. haha. =))

and im goin SHOPPING tomorrow. yays. its been three months... hmm. i should shop till i drop tmr. haha. =DDDDD

common test is finally over. after two weeks of torture. gosh. bt at least, ya, its over.

and i miraculously passed my eng and chn. haha. i PASSED both of them which i thought i had flunked. at least this was some little thing i could be positive about because all the rest sucks. im gonna fail my sciences and humanities and blah blah blah. although i might have studied quite alot for these subjects (xcept for bio and geog) , bt everything the paper is still so tough. even if the paper is easy, i wouldnt have pass because i jus cant pass no matter what.

and dance was boring today. i sat on the floor for hours coz i had no steps to learn and nothing to do at all. all i did for today was just stretching and recalling some steps i learnt last year.

sometimes i just wish lyk slapping someone's face coz i've never tried before and it looks fun. i dun care whether the person is dead or nt bt i jus wan something for me to slap to make me feel better.

hi. this is just a short post to relieve me from my stress of common test. after this, i will be rushing to memorise all my trigo formulaes.

it has been a week of bad things. firstly, i flunked my eng paper coz i wrote the whole summary without rephrasing anything. so i think im never goin to pass dat paper since my eng has always been so lousy. the same day at night, i was rushing to complete the ss project and had to wait for everyone to submit to me and i had to put everything nicely and print evrything out and so by den, i had no time to study for chn. although there is nth much to study actually, bt the whole point is dat i used up lyk three hours of my day just to complete one assignment.

AND im goin to flunk my chn paper also coz everything in dat paper was too difficult for me to do and my chn has also been very lousy.

AND the worst thing dat happen to me was dat i fell from the bars after pe. i should have learnt the lesson when i nearly fell the previous time i tried jumping up. bt since i did it successfully two consecutive times, i thought i would be able to reach again, bt no, i didnt. so when me and eunice both at the same time tried to jump and hold the bars, my hands slip off the bar and i just landed on the floor on my ass. luckily, i didnt bang my head and get a concussion. so, it was then, i realised that i am not tall.

something happen again at night dat day when i was going home from tution. at usual, my dad fetched me home and while we were on the way, we met this owner and his dog. from far, i thought it was a cute and not fierce labrador or retriver, bt when as i walked nearer, i realised it was a fierce looking dog with vampire teeth. i was stupid coz i thot it wasnt going to attack me. bt it did. when i was passing by them, the stupid dog just barked and jumped up at me. luckily the owner pulled it back, if not, i may have been knocked out by that evil dog. bt dat was nt all. after the 'attack' and while we were walking off, the stupid owner just said sth in a sarcastic tone. we ignored him but seriously, it wasnt our fault dat we were walking so near. u shld have taken care of ur stupid dog, u idiotic owner.

there was maths test the next day and since we had pe. i went home at around 5 and by the time i reached home, eat and bathe, it was time to go tuition. and after i finished my AMATH tuition, i didnt want to study anymore. and so, i didnt study for maths at all.

so for the following days, i had no mood to do anything.

ya. i noe i overshot and wrote a little too much... bt anw, this week is really a bad week.

i dun understand the world. i dun understand why there is unfairness and sufferings in the world. i dun understand why people receive so much education and they do not apply what they learn to help the unfortunate or people who need help.

i am not happy because i dunno what i am doin. i dun understand why i am going to school and learning so much. i dun wan my life to be as boring as this. are we goin to torture ourselves with homeworks and tests until the age of lyk 20? and den find a job, and start torturing ourselves again by doing whatever we are supposed to do until we are old, maybe the age of 50. and den start whining because there is nothing left for you to do and u can only sit on the sofa and watch tv, wait for ur time to leave the earth? is this really what we are supposed to do? is this the purpose of us being on earth?

i dun understand wads the point when there is simply no space for us to put in happiness.

AND im facing a big crisis now. coz people DO NOT understand simple instructions. omg. i am seriously going crazy.

it is now common test and i am using all my time to do social studies and i have no time to revise. is this what the school want us to do?

one major exam over. physics SPA 1. feel relieved. haha. at least, nth went wrong and i am very happy about that. =)

common test is coming and i haven start revising anything. it is going to be another storm. omg... bt anw, i gotta look towards the positive side, which is that the march holidays are coming after the common test. BUT, den.... i realised that it is nothing to be positive about coz there is going to be two SPA during the holidays. so, i realised that this is a never ending thing.