hello

im here again. =D

lectures are boring. school is dead. but guitar so far has been exciting. chinese new year was the same as last year. nth much.

OHH. and and i wanna new phone. lyk nokia N97 mini. but den again i wan itouch.

i wan a new blog.

wow. orientation was great. CENO was awesome. TRITONE is a champion. =D haha. east coast park was fun although it was only beach cleaning. but the weather was so damn hot. therefore i shall always remember to bring a fan with me.

but sadly, all good things come to an end. temp lectures started yesterday and i nearly fell asleeep during chem. AND there was homework on the first day. wow. cant imagine how life will be the next two years. please do not make jc life miserable for me.

anws, i wanna dance. feel like dancing now. i hope i have time to take courses during the weekends. =D

OH. OH. and i cant wait for new year to come. can get to wear all my new clothes!!!

okays. SO, im in AJC. and so far, orientation has been boring. all the talks and the uninteresting games... there was a cca thing today and it was quite a failure. had no idea wad to choose. dance was a no way since the trainings are so tough. and i failed all the sports tryouts, as in not all, but the three i tried. in the end, me and bah chose netball which i noe i will fail and the second choice is guitar. omg. tell me im mad.

i chose ajc. lols. i never thought that i would ever ever choose that old sch. but i did. school is starting soon and im kinda excited. i think, but it is all because i got no more money left and cant go shopping anymore. jc life isnt goin to be any fun and peaceful. and i gt stressed out by this stupid TIME magazine lady who called me and told me all the crap about GP and stuffs. omg. i havent even know what sch i am goin and there u r trying to stress me out. are u mad?

these days have been surrounded by so much choices. ajc? sajc? nyjc? poly? and so much more. all looks good or maybe not. the thought of going back to school makes me feel tired. omg.

HEY!!!
ITS THE YEAR 2010! omg.
cant believe it. a year has passed. its a brand new year with brand new goals and hopes. yay!
so anw. the holidays have been great so far. been shopping every week and buying loads of clothes. =DD i just need a pair of DR. MARTENS and i should have everything i want. but thats impossible.
new year eve was awesome too. except for the part where we sat on the grass for an hour plus and they were itching me. anw, the fireworks was so nice. =D it was so crowded and warm. but i think it was fun, to have soaked in that atmosphere and celebrated new year with thousands of people. bt next year, im gonna learn from crystal and stay in that ritz carlton hotel to watch fireworks and enjoy that luxurious bathtub.
dats all and
HAPPY NEW YEAR, people

okays. i dunno where to start.
O levels were over a million hours ago and that was worth celebrating. went out with the gang several times and watched jennifer's body, blah, blah, blah.
bought new black dress.
prom nite was terrible. the school is selfish.
2012 was quite nice but the theatre is freezing cold. made me thought of the time we watched whiteout.
tried fixing a thosand pieces puzzle, but it still not done after a week.
finished reading " devil wears prada" for the second time. ohmy. i need a new book.
ate the new haagen daazs ice cream, dark choc orange. yummm. eating belgium choc now.
SENTOSA tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hope it doesnt rain. please. please. please. i need the sun. i wanna play in the water. go cycling, or maybe roller-blading. nd i want a PICNIC!
okay, dats all. i needa breathe.

im hugging my textbooks and sticking post-its everywhere.

i feel so tired after this week after 5 papers are done. english was horrible especially paper 1 and i think i should not hold hopes for that. paper 2 was bad, but not as horrible. maths was better than english. amaths was worse that maths but better than english. in conclusion, i think i will do badly for eng and amaths.

preparing for my social studies and geography but i have no idea where to start. there seems to be a long to-do-list waiting for me. everything is equally important but i have no time for all. i need to get at least a B3 for my humanities and it not going to be achieved unless i start doing all my essays.

13 more days and i shall be free. and i need MAGNUM!!!

please listen to me.
i need your help.

hey, one more week to O levels.

have been studying and doing prelim papers for the past few months. nine more days and the exams are going to start. how i hope the days can go slower and i have more time to get prepare for the war. but again, i hope time can go faster so that in a blink of an eye, the exams are over and i can play. omg. all i can do now is pray and study hard, very very very hard.

i feel like watching movies. (500) days of summer. FAME. cloudy with a chance of meatballs. titanic. the ugly truth.......................................................

my mind is not settled
my heart is pumping
i do not know why is this so
perhaps i am too nervous
but i hope i am not
treat it as a performance
where i shall shine
smile as i tremble
i can do it

haa...

finally. the prelims are over. =D

went out with crystal, bah and elise ytd after bio paper. to orchard for a movie and lunch. went shaw first and tried to decide on a movie. they wanted phobia 2 but i dun want. den the time travellers wife, but bah dun wan. crystal wanted accident but that was out of the list. so whiteout. but we dunno wad was that about. so we stoned there for one hour argueing and talking crap and dilly dallying before i realised we could go another movie theatre. we wanted coco before chanel or the proposal so we went cineleisure to check. but then, there wasnt. but they had fame which was like at 9.15. lols. we had no choice left but to watch whiteout.
okays. it was not so bad after all. quite nice and exciting. esp the part after the movie when we walked out of the theatre and there was a guy following us and hearing elise screams.
ate at Breeks! cafe. and the chicken was not so nice. but we had great time laughing.

took back papers today...okay. nothing much to say about it.

we know we all worked hard.
you knew how much you could go.
please do not run so far and before you know it, you fall off the cliff.
do not treat everything as it should be.
you are just too realistic and ignorant.

i am studying now. and thats such a miracle. its bio paper 2 tmr and i hope i can do well. this is the only science paper that im having hopes.

anws, i ate ben and jerry ice cream just now. haha. =P delicious. but i still think magnum is nicer. and i still have some more of them in my fridge.

okay. i need to go back to studying.

i feel so dumb and lazy. i think nothing can help me. because i cant even help myself. i want to study but yet i dun feel like studying.

the holidays are coming to an end soon. i accomplished many things. like finishing some practice papers. but i havent started studying. i only tried looking at the pictures in the textbooks and analysing them.

went to dairy farm yesterday. it was quite nice. lots of monkeys and trees. and a path of road that seemed to lead to nowhere. okay. it did lead to somewhere. the quarry. singapore quarry. where there are supposed to be cute lil quebes. and i tink i was cheated cos there were no ducks in sight. but anws, the scenery was amazing. although it was only a gigantic rock, but it was like really nice and something you cant find anywhere else in singapore. it was quiet and very little people. its a lake i tink, then, many cattails. clear water. many pond skaters. i tink its nice for a picnic.

ate subway. and the cookies are so nice. haha. i ate one yesterday and one today. and i tink i can eat ten more. and my dad bought magnum. yes. MAGNUM!!! im gonna eat one later. and two days ago, we ate waffles with dark chocolate. ooh. i tink i could just take chocolates for dinner later.

please. please help me.
its only for another two or more months.
i know i can do this.

ohhh. yesss. my blogger is fine now. but only when im using the old comp. the new comp is still in a idiot situation.

so... anws, the week before was prelims paper. it shld be okay. i tink. i finished all the papers but all were crap. especially chinese. ohgosh. the paper 2 sucks. but god, please grant me wisdom to finish all papers. thank you.

and its the HOLIDAYS. haha. okay. it means more prelim papers to do and more at-home-studying routine. so no YEAHS. bt at least part of me is happy because i can stay home instead of going school and bear with the boredom of teachers.

and one more thing. im graduating soon. after my prelims paper. thats fast. and i cant believe it.

you became a blur image to me
i rubbed my eyes
but u were still fading

prelims 2 just started. eng paper in the morning. omg. lets not talk about it.

bt i just feel sorry. for everything because i was looking through tinted glass.

i like this song:
SOLID GROUND

Cannot fall, never do regret
Know just what is being said
Know the risk you take
Keep your head above it all
Sure you can fall
But not now you gotta prove
Something new, being you, being you

Can't feel, keep from asking why
Be the strongest at goodbyes
Know your place in life
Now expand your wings and fly
It reaches high but not,
Enough you seem to me
So incomplete, swept off your feet

And let me tell you they will always pull you down
Before you know it they will take your smile and push you around
They will fight and struggle
To blur and trouble
Your sense of solid ground

Cannot know, lose your self-control
Be and angel over all
Know your secret way
Laugh at everything they say
Will you remain the same?
And now you dare not see
What's letting go
Inside of me,is it me?

And they will always…

Keep your head above it all, sure you can fall
But not now you gotta prove

And they will always pull you down
Before you know it they will take your smile and push you around
They will haunt your every dream
They will make you come undone at the seams
And they will fight and struggle
To blur and trouble
Your sense of solid ground?

Keep your head above it all
Sure you can fall
But not now you gotta prove
Something new, being you, being you


OH. and i want to watch CINDERELLA ON ICE so badly, bt its too expensive and this is not the right time. i want to watch STOMP too but im too lazy to check the details. i want to watch UP, THE PROPOSAL and so much so much... bt its all bacause of u and i cant. u, stupid prelims/o levels.

blogger is IRRITATING!!! it always has some stupid problems.

but anws, it has been a week of tests. my brain cells has died out and only 10 per cent is left. wonder if they can last till the Os.

i think teachers are retarted and i dun feel like explaining why. they just are. how i wish they have more brains to think and less mouth to talk. school is just dead with teachers like that.

eng oral exam just over on tuesday. i thot i talked too much crap during the conversation part. i was like reciting a newspaper review when i talked about the causes, problems and wadever shit about the lifestyle thing. i could imagine the teachers giving me a question mark look, but they didnt. so it wasnt that bad. the picture was the one that made me confused. thot it was on healthcheck, like taking blood pressure. but turned out that got people said it was blood donation. oh please. i didnt even see blood or syringes. but maybe there was. could have been that i was too cock eye and didnt see. wadeva. its over and there is nothing to be changed.

made a promise to myself to study extreme hard for Os. hope i could do so.

lols. blogger turned out to look funny. wadeva.

and again, for the thousands or perhaps millions time in my life ever since i hve gt thinkings, i feel that my life is empty. so pathetic that it only contains endless of stories about studies and studies and nothing else. i know i shold not be complaining and be glad that i have the chance to study but i dont know if this is what i want. the statue of liberty is telling us to be free, but im not. im locked to textbooks and exams.

i hope i could dance forever and be in the world of music.
i hope i could skate on ice and be like swans.
i hope i could fall in love.

i think i have been wasting too much time. and i cant afford to waste more time. but studying whole day is simply boring. i cant put myself to do all the work and stare at the textbook. i want to score well too and i hope preparing for exams could be much more fun.

going grandma's house tmr. but that's not the exciting part cos shopping is the main point. i cant imagine another day of sitting on the sofa and watching tv for the whole day so i have to go out. =DD omg. cant wait for it.. im gonna buy myself a new wallet, a pair of shorts and maybe something else to pamper myself.

lastly, HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!!!

promise yourself to be strong that nothing can disturb your peace of mind

look to the sunny side of everything and make your optimism come true

think only of the best, work only for the best and expect only the best

forget about the mistakes made and press on to the greater achievements of the future

YESS!!!
blogger is finally working fine..............................

these days have been such crazy ones that i wont forget.

dear john is arousing. the human anatomy is so fun to talk about when u are with peeps like EL and BAH. me and crys are totally normal but may get excited a few times.

marina barrage was not awesome. it was totally boring. i was in my own world when the sharon was speaking. ya. elise was right. she is lame. green roof was better. walked on the open grass and saw couples and couples trying to do all sorts of things in public. EL was showing off.

novena for dinner after that. pastamania. yumms. haa. not for EL though. had creamy chicken. went home and reached at 8 plus. totally tired.

thurs was another boring school day. only the last few minutes before we left school was super spastic. yes. EL. i saw.

friday. national celebrations. okay. i didnt go school.

i felt like i was standing on seesaw.

i could lean left or right

but i couldnt stay centre

i just hope life could be much simpler

oh dear. blogger is still is like shit and there is nothing i can do.
facebook is getting boring.
suddenly, its just like there is something i wanna do but i dunno wad it is and im simply lost.
school is like dead too. going through papers everyday and assembly is lame shit. i cant believe we have to line up in index no. although it makes no diff sice im still sitting beside crystal. bt i still think its so lame.

okay. fine. today is a disaster. i cant move to livejournal and i am stuck using this. gosh.
the prelim results were back and thankgod i passed. im not sure about physics since it is not returned yet. bt i lost hope on dat. so it was still fine for every other thing. except for english. cant believe i failed compre. maths and amaths was okay i think. at least an A1 although the paper was not really easy. chem was as usual a B. humanities same, but lil improvement. bio was the best. never thought i could get an A1, if i didnt count wrong. haha. it made me happy for at least an hour or so although it was a 75, just on the dot.
bt i really couldnt understand what was wrong. if u studied, then u take the exam and do your best. u dont care what the results are since you know u have done your best. why fret over a tiny exam just because you did badly? and i know i studied. i read all that i should. except that i forgot all about coniferous forests and it came out, wasting my 7 marks. but i was at least pleased with my results until expectations came. it wasnt that i didnt want all A1. but it was that whether i could. doesnt a small step count? yes. i know i could have done better, but they are always limitations. you dont do too much, because it isnt worth it.